Without further ado…
I panicked, I stood staring at the darkness, crying, my head
swimming, trying to figure out what had just happened, what had caused
I raced up the stairs and quickly began calling friends, Phil, Glen, Dan, Dennis, I called Ryan and Michael and explained what had happened, When Ryan asked why I’d lied I explained that I’d been looking at a house for us and wanted to surprise him… but he’d freaked out on me so badly, I never had the chance to explain that. I called Natasha, She alerted her friends at the P-house. I called my Michael, and I sat back and thought I should call Brian too, Brian was very sympathetic, and said he hadn’t heard from him, but he’d hold him if he got there and let me know. And then I called someone I thought maybe would know something,
“Hi, uh Nathan?”
“Yeah, Who’s this?” It was
“It-it’s Alex Nathan, have you seen
“No man, what’s up? Why would you be calling me?”
I explained
“Listen dude, I’ve known that asshole for most of my
life. It wouldn’t be
“Thank you Nathan,” I started to tear up again.
“Dude, stop the crying will you? It won’t help, and it… well, no offence, but it sounds really gay.”
I stopped crying suddenly and just said nothing, letting him think about his comment.
“Dude, I KNOW you’re gay, but being gay and sounding gay are totally different, besides, I’ve seen you handle a lot worse already, just keep trying to think of other places he might have gone, I’ll call a few others, and if I see him, I’ll knock his ass out and call you. God DAMN he can be a jerk sometimes!” Nathan said sighing loudly.
“Thank you Nathan, I can’t thank you enough.” I said gratefully.
“Alex, do me a favor?” Nathan asked.
“Of course, what?” I asked.
“Call me Nate please…I only get called Nathan when I’m in trouble.” He said with a sardonic tone
I smiled to myself. “Yeah, sure Nate, you got it.”
“I’ll call ya if I hear anything. Call me tomorrow if ya learn anything ok?”
“You got it Nate, and thanks, I owe you…”
I ran out of ideas of who to call finally… But when I went
to our room and saw the mess he’d made tearing up papers and throwing things
around the room, and saw his motor cycle helmet sitting on the bed, I began to
cry again, I was just so worried that something would happen to him on that
damned bike. I paced and worried, and
wanted to call Michael, but was scared of bothering him. At
“Alex?” It was Ryan’s Michael.
“Yeah! Have you heard anything?” I asked excitedly.
“Yeah baby, Ryan’s going to pick him up now, some guy named
Gus called, said he knew you and Austin, and that Austin had gone there and
gotten really drunk, and after he passed out, the guy got our number out of his
wallet, and called. Ryan talked to him,
he told me to let you know that
I didn’t sleep well, aside from all the insanity, I was used to having this big presence in bed, rolling over on me, snoring, and pressing his big cold feet on me. Strange how comforting those things can be. I rolled over finally and smelled his musk on his pillow, and that helped finally, and I drifted off to a restless sleep.
I called his work the next morning and made up some lame excuse for him and promised that this was a one-time deal. Marika and Mr. Riley were actually quite sentimental and nice to me the rest of the day.
Ryan called me at lunch and told me that
“Ryan, do me a favor please.” I asked calmly.
“Of course Alex,”
“Please explain to that big crybaby, that I’m REALLY pissed off, and he might have to find somewhere to stay for a few days till I’ve calmed down.” I growled, surprised at my sudden anger.
“Alex…”
“Yeah?”
“Don’t involve me in your fucking games please,”
I was quiet a minute trying to determine if I was in fact, playing a game, or if I actually was that pissed. I decided I really was that pissed. It just hit me suddenly, now that I knew he was safe. How DARE he accuse me of cheating and pull that crap after all I’d done for him, after what he’d put me through!
“Ryan?”
“Yeah?”
“It’s not a game, I’m not leaving him, or anything, but I’m not sure I can see him now without seriously hurting him. I don’t want to do anything I’ll regret.” I said thinking of the time he’d seen me almost kill Nathan.
“Then don’t, but damn it Alex, you lied to him, it’s not like you didn’t play a part in this stupid thing, yeah, he really blew it all out of proportion, and trust me, I left no doubt about that to him this morning. But he wasn’t irrational about his fears; he caught you in a bold faced lie.”
I felt… like a kid being punished.
“I’ll be there later; I hafta take care of something first before I can get there.”
I then called Nathan and told him we’d found Austin and I’d
be brining him back that night. He
thanked me and said he’d talk to
I went home after work and took a quick shower and changed
to go to
As I got there I took a path I hadn’t taken in a while, and felt scared as I got close to my destination. I felt strange as I knocked on the familiar door, scared that I was doing something wrong.
“Hello?” I heard from behind the door as it opened.
“Hi Jas,” I said softly as I let him adjust to my presence.
“A-A-Alex, uhhh, come on in?” Jason sounded really shocked. He looked good with his new hair cut and much lighter hair.
“I figured you’d have just called, you didn’t need to come
on down, didn’t
“Ummm, actually, that partially why I’m here Jason, What
exactly did you say to
“What? Alex, I never said anything like that to him, please believe me. I only asked him to please have you call me that I needed to ask you something very important.” Jason said putting his hand on my arm for emphasis.
“Sorry Jason, I knew it was something stupid like that, he totally freaked out last night and accused me of cheating and… I’m going over to Ryan’s to get him in a little while.” I said rolling my eyes. I could see from Jason’s look that he was thinking I’d made a bad choice. I couldn’t disagree totally right at that moment.
“So, uhhh, what did you want to ask me?” I said trying to refocus the conversation.
“I uhh… Come on in, have a seat,” Jason said as he closed the door behind me.
“Alex, I uhhh, have to ask you something, kind of, it’s… tricky.” Jason said looking down a lot. He was so beautiful, so fucking smooth and suave… and his new look was amazing.
“yeah?” I asked curious.
“Well, uhhh, when I got back, I ran into an old friend, of yours… And, I wanted to be sure it was ok with you, before I asked him…” He was him-hawing around the issue.
“Jas, honey, you don’t need to ask me to date someone else… baby, Christ, I’ll never get over the guilt I feel for what happened…” I said in confused exasperation.
“Nooo, I know that, mostly Alex, it’s just…It’s Michael I needed talk to you about… I was thinking I should talk to you first.”
“Michael? MY MICHAEL?” I asked surprised.
“Uhh, yeah… I ran into him when I got back from
“Jason?”
“Yeah?”
“Next time you see that 6’6” freak monkey, will you please slap his face and call him a total chicken shit and tell him HE should have been the one asking me. Not you.”
I said this very angrily, and then I smiled, “Jas, I couldn’t be happier for either of you, not that it relives my guilt, but at least now I can hope that something wonderful might come of it.”
Jason got his award winning smile on and said, “He really does love you Alex, He just didn’t want you to get upset if you ever ran into us. It would be awkward on so many levels.”
“I’d love to warn you to be good to him, but I know you too well for that, besides, He’s the one I’ll be warning to be good…” I said with a grin. “I’ll have to think of a really good threat…”
“Ya know, assuming things with
“You mean how to be around me and each other?” I asked
softly thinking of
“No! I mean that when you and Michael are together, everyone else comes in second… You’re like this divorced couple that know each other’s every weakness and secret.” Jason laughed softly his eyes sparkling.
“You know there’s nothing there romantic right?” I asked worried he had the wrong idea…
He got a funny knowing grin and flashed a lopsided smile at me, “Oooh yeah, uhhh, he likes a LOT of the same things you do actually.” Jason chuckled knowingly with sparkling eyes. I blushed knowing a few of them as we’d discussed them several times.
“Why don’t you call me this weekend, maybe we can all go out and get some dinner… maybe it’ll help if Austin sees me and Michael together, and that I’m not trying to seduce you back.”
“Ok, “I said lost in a sudden thought, “Jas, I just want you to know, that if fate hadn’t played her hand the way she did, nothing could have ever made me hurt you… I-I really was happy.” I said catching his eyes then looking down.
“I know Alex, and thank you.
I think that might have been the hardest part, trying to be mad at you
when I knew you’d never try and hurt me.” Jason said holding my eyes. “Henna
explained all about what happened to
As I hugged Jason and got up to leave a few minutes later, Jason put a hand on my arm to stop me and asked, “Alex, do you think I could stop over and watch one of your shows maybe?” I was dumbfounded,
“Jas! YOU’RE the reason there IS a show, I’d love you to come see us.”
“Cool, I’ll see if Michael wants to go this weekend.”
“Ya know Jas, Marika was right…”
“About what?”
“She said I shoulda kept you and Austin and both,”
Jason laughed then pointed out, “Only problem is,
“Jason?”
“Yeah hon?”
“Aren’t we supposed to, you know, hate each other and fight since we’re technically Ex’s?”
“No hon, only lesser gay people do that, we’re too good for that crap. If you were the type to do that, I’d never haven fallen for you. Sorry, you’ll just have to fight with Austin and Michael.”
I gave Jason a huge hug and held it for a long time, and he hugged me back too.
Jason walked me out to the jeep and kissed my cheek as I said goodbye.
So I rode over to Ryan’s place much happier, and in a far better place then when I’d left home earlier.
Michael answered the door with a hug and a kiss, “Matahari is inside nursing a hangover.” He said rolling his eyes.
As I walked into the living room I found
“Hey Alex” Ryan said coming over to give me a hug.
“Hi Ryan, how are you?”
“Trying to remember how to take care of drunken frat boys with hangovers actually.” He said with a dry smirk.
“Hey!”
“How ya feeling today?” I responded to
“I uhhh, mostly embarrassed, ashamed. Scared I went too far.”
I neither denied nor affirmed his statements, Ryan and
Michael were as anxious to hear what I said as
“So explain, why you freaked out so badly and why were you so upset you wouldn’t give me 60 seconds to explain last night?”
I sat there with no expression thinking.
“Nathan says you have a history of freaking out on girlfriends.” I said simply.
“Well yeah, but that was always different, I’d get all pissy
first, it was always when I’d been cheating and they first caught on and… and I
was sooo happy with you, this was totally different.”
“Well, before I can decide what to do or anything, I need to understand what would make you go crazy like that… it doesn’t make sense.”
“Alex, I was… calm till you lied to me, I’m not excusing my stupid actions, but that’s the moment I really lost it.
“I had a good reason to lie, I can get people to affirm this, or I can show you what I was doing, but yesterday had nothing to do with Jason.” I said calmly.
“’yesterday…?’”
“Yeah, I went over this afternoon after work hoping he could shed some light on why you freaked out…”
“You WHAT???” Austin and Ryan shouted at the same time, I expected it almost, I think. As they both tried to ask why, I raised my voice and pressed on. “I thought that maybe he had said something that could’ve misunderstood or taken wrong.” I said not stopping for them.
When they stopped and listened, I said simply, “He wanted to
see me to ask if he could date Michael.” I looked right at
“Whatever Jason had been planning to do, once Henna
explained what she knew about what happened with
“Shut up
“Alex…” Michael said gently, “I’m not sure…”
“I know why he said it Michael, I’m saying he can just fucking stop, and I don’t need his sacrifices now… I need to know if he still loves me.”
He looked down at the floor again.
“
“Yeah?”
“Are you ok to travel?”
“Yeah, why?”
“I want to get some dinner then I’m gonna show you what I was doing.”
“You don’t have to Alex, I’m ok now. If you need a secret, I’ll just learn to
deal.”
“Thank you, now go get dressed.” I said rolling my eyes with exasperation.
So
I asked if
climbed in. I drove and took us over to Natasha’s house and pulled in next to Cole’s beat up faded red truck.
I immediately took Austin, whom I’d barely spoken to, directly out back towards the bungalow.
“Ummm, are Natasha and Cole out back waiting?”
“Maybe, don’t know really.”
“Alex?”
“Hmmm?”
“How long are you gonna keep giving me all this attitude? I’m not complaining or saying I don’t deserve it, I deserve worse. I’m asking cause my girlfriends could keep it up for weeks. But they weren’t as good at as you are.” He wasn’t being sarcastic he honestly expected an answer.
“
A tall woman with long brown hair and a nice face, totally devoid of makeup answered,
“Hi Ronda?” I asked,
“Na, I’m Rachel, Ronda is out working till about
“Hi, my name is Alex, and I was here yesterday with Natasha/Frank
looking at this place since he said you were moving to
Rachel got a big grin and held the door open so we could
walk in, “Hi, yeah, she told my all about you wanting this place, and keeping
it secret until Christmas.” I didn’t look
at
“Ohhh, you’re not planning to move down then?”
“Nooo, we’re still moving, but it’s not a secret anymore.” I
pushed
“Hi,
“Ohhhhh, I’m sorry, did I say something I…?”
“Nooo, it was a bunch of drama, and the only way out was to come clean.” I said looking over to Austin who was blushing and hanging his head.
“Alex…I…How can I…. God, I’m such an idiot, I’ll never be able to…” I cut him off with a quick, “Oh yes you can, but we’ll worry about that later. So what do you think?”
“I don’t think there’s any way I deserve you.” He said looking around.
“Obviously, but I meant about the house?”
“Would you like to see the bedrooms and the sunroom… well shade room, it’s on the side under the trees?” Rachel asked.
So she showed us the house and all the rooms, the small walk in closets… the very small bathroom… the open kitchen that opened to the dining room and had a small reach-through onto the pool deck.
“So when exactly are you moving if you don’t mind my asking?” I asked her.
“Well, Rhonda’s mom is sick and we’re going to be staying at her house. We leave at the end of the month. After Thanksgiving.” Rachael said.
“I’m sorry, I hope it’s not too serious,” I said earnestly.
As they’d be packing the next few weekends, I volunteered
“Give it up
We were going to go visit Cole and Natasha, but she had left
for the club and he was asleep already… So we went home. Or that’s what
“Hey! Where the hell are you going?”
“We’re going to Bernie’s.” I said by way of an
explanation. I wasn’t in a real, talky
sharing mood, though my mood had softened a lot. I KNEW
When we got inside Bernie remembered us from Halloween and asked us a how we were doing.
“Ohhh, pretty good, but I’m having a little problem,” I said with a polite grin.
“What’s that?” Bernie asked.
“My slave isn’t attired right! I said sharply looking right
into
I grabbed his shirt collar and dragged him over to the
collars and said, “Kneel!” Despite his
reservations and fears, I think his libido was taking over and he knelt with no
question. “I want that one.” I said
pointing at one with big spikes, lots of rings, and that matched a few of the
wrist restraints. “Remove your shirt!” I
ordered
“Tell Gus I said thank you for protecting my pet. And we’ll try to see him next week.” I said without explaining why.
“Sure thing” Bernie said as he gawked at my reticent and
very humbled
I let him put his shirt on before we pulled into our parking lot at home, I didn’t want to explain anything to the neighbors or Mrs. Tremere.
“When we get inside, strip to your jock and fetch me the handcuffs” I said as we were walking up the stairs… ‘GOD!!!! This was fun,’ I just didn’t want to push too hard, I didn’t want to ruin my surprise by going too far…
I had him kneel again and cuffed his hands behind back, then had him straddle a stool so I could tease him, run my fingers and hands over him, when he began asking questions, I shushed him, then went and got a handkerchief and gagged him… Not part of my plan, but it was truly satisfying and kept him guessing, and it was keeping him off balance. I drew fingers slowly up his side which gave him goosebumps, and then would play with his ass, groping and fingering his cheeks telling him how much I was going to enjoy these later, I asked if he were ready, I could feel his shudder and see the concern in his eyes. At first he shook his head no, but when I told him how worried I was the night before, how mad I was later on… I asked him again if it was alright if I did this, He didn’t want to, but slowly he nodded his head with resignation and a lot of reservations. His eyes were closed but he was acquiescing. Despite all that happened to him, he was willing to go along with this. I undid his cuffs and told him to go lie on the bed with his hands over his head.
When I came in a few minutes later I found him face down on the bed. I smiled warmly. As I sat on the bed, I ran a hand over his back and up his wonderful cheeks. Then slapped them and told him I wanted to face him. He rolled over with a look of confusion on his face. I tied his arms and legs spread eagle, but not too tight. After playing with him, which was frustrating as he wasn’t ticklish really, I straddled his lap then slowly up on his chest so when I took his gag out, he could blow me. It’s not like he never did this on most nights, he’d gotten very good. But we’d never done it like this, never with him preparing for me to assault him, as it were. His eyes were troubled and very concerned but our eyes never parted, I was beginning to rethink my plan, that maybe I was pushing him too far. Rather then play it out, as I had planned to do, I took a condom and opened it, which he watched with resigned eyes. Imagine his surprise when I turned around and put it on his cock rather than mine. I scooted back a little and maneuvered myself to sit back on his cock, which hadn’t once lost it’s erection since Bernie’s. Even afraid, that boy was hard as steel. As I rocked myself down gently on him, pleasuring myself, I smiled down at him and chuckled.
“I only wanted you to give me permission to fuck you honey, I never planned on actually doing it. These costumes we wear don’t define who we are. You’d be my man even if you were wearing a dress. But uhh, don’t please!”
I continued sliding up and down on him.
“I figured, I needed you to give me something precious to
you, on top of allowing me to take control, which I know you love doing so
much, being in control… I figure when I let you up… we’ll call it even.” I said
grinding down on him. I had never had
“No baby, I have to do one more thing once we’re done, to
make sure it never happens again. And we
still need to talk about it. But I’m
glad you’re ready to have it done with, and aren’t planning to hold it over me
forever. I’ve been through enough of that and I don’t think I could go through
again. Trust me, I will learn from my
mistakes.”
I totally loved the feeling of power I had, looking down and watching his face contort and his hollering as he orgasmed, I came shortly after and decided I had to let him go, both because I knew how sore my arms got when they’re tied up like that, and also because I needed them wrapped around me post orgasm.
After some copious cuddling,
“Well, unless you want a PBJ, you’re the cook baby.”
“You’re the slave, you’re the cook, you’re the top…”
“Awww, don’t be like that baby-you know a man’s place is in the kitchen.”
“Barefoot and muscular?”
“Mmmmmmmmmmm, yeah, and naked, and maybe with a backwards hat.” I said lounging on the bed.
A minute later
In the bedroom
though,
“Alex, I’m going to show you something, and I don’t want you to get mad ok?” He asked placing a hand on my calf and caressing it.
“What? I don’t get it?” I said holding his shaving kit; I thought maybe he was planning on getting rid of his chest hair.
“You don’t have to shave it off do you?” I asked thinking his dancing job required it.
“It’s not a razor babe…”
I finally opened it up and became horribly worried when I saw these big syringes and a couple of brown glass vials.
“WHAT???” I asked sitting up suddenly. “
“Alex! It’s not
drugs, not the kind you think anyways!”
“
“It’s steroids, I was trying to get bigger…”
“
“And aren’t these illegal?” I asked.
“Well… yeah… But I’m not on a sports team, and no one’s gonna
test me. And before you start telling me
all the downsides and all the negative effects, I know, I didn’t plan on being
on them very long. I didn’t know they’d
begin affecting my temper so soon.”
I just sat looking at
“You’re SUUUUURE…. That’s it???” I said without missing a breath.
“Well,” he blushed, “I got awfully hot when he took over tonight… DAMN that was hot!”
I grabbed his collar that I’d left on all night and pulled him over for a kiss.
“Mmmmmmm, yeah, it was fun, wasn’t it?”
“Yeah babe, we’ll have to figure out how to decide who gets to be boss incase we both want to on the same night.” He said trying to pin my arms down as he slid on top of me. I quickly raised my hips and unbalanced him and then rolled out and got on top of him, it was a simple Judo pinning maneuver.
“Simple, we wrestle for it.” I said gazing in his sparkling eyes with a huge smirk.
“Ok, I wanna know why you didn’t try fucking me though,” He asked with a strange gleam in his eye.
“I didn’t think you’d want me to.” I said letting him go to caress his face. “Do you?”
“I don’t know, I know I don’t want it to hurt like it did
back in
“I’m starting to get used to it too finally” I said with a deep sigh.
“Ass monkey!” he said grinning
I leaned down to kiss him and lay down totally on top of him and felt his hard cock poking my belly and his collar poking my face.
“This needs to go” I said removing it forcefully.”
“Well, I missed work today and you must be exhausted, we can
discuss all this tomorrow.”
“Let’s go brush our teeth, you taste like summer rolls,
besides, I gotta pee.” I said sliding out of bed and heading to the
bathroom.
“A new house, IN
That night we kissed ourselves to sleep and I awoke the next morning to a very sensual kissing on my neck and a pair of imploring hands, seeking permission for him to make love to me as I woke up. Permission was granted enthusiastically.
That day I hadn’t even gotten to lunch before I had a call from Ryan and my Michael, both wanting to know what was going on, and then Phil and Dan, and Glen called wanting more information about the house. Which was amazing, as I had only mentioned it briefly to Ryan… My Boy was calling everyone and going on about it. Marika and I not only discussed that, but also we decided to ask Robert if he wanted to be Manager of us, as he was the one closest to the music industry. Besides I teased her, he was scared of us and we’d be able to get him to do whatever we wanted anyways. To which she started laughing and got a conspiratorial and in a small voice said, “I know!!!!!!” to which we both roared.
Then we talked about a new bit I wanted to do with back up singers, she had two girls from her Choir she said she’d ask. We could practice Friday and Monday.
Mr. Riley came over to make sure I’d be over to his house
for Thanksgiving as Mrs. Tremere had chosen to have dinner there as he had a
much larger place. She’d been spending
more and more time at his house and they both seemed to be a lot happier. I’d already invited my
Despite the extra
work we were doing, and the additional income, Austin and I were living like
pauper’s trying to save for the move, and to get something nice for Ryan and
Michael’s wedding. Austin and I drove to
“Hey,
“Sure babe, but I know nuth’n about art; you gotta be the
man on this ok?”
“Yeah, we’ll start looking for us too! Christmas is going to be all about out new house.” I said bumping into him.
Wednesday,
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Hey look, NO CLIFFHANGER!!!!!!!! Not really. And they’re happy… I wonder how I can mess that up! Hehehehehe… 20 will be out soon.
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