Those Golden Eyes
By J.W. Smith
Chapter 20
Dave untied the bow
that held the six journals and opened the first one dated 1938-1941. Joe, who
had tired of bending over Dave's shoulder to read the letter, stretched and
suggested they all see what the rest of the mansion looked like.
"Dave?" Joe
called out softly to Dave, who had is nose in the journal.
"Hmm?"
"Close that book
and come on."
"Mmm 'kay." Dave said without looking up. He
read:
[
This shall be
the beginning of my thoughts on what will happen in my life. ]
I turned 17 two days
ago. I start my last year of upper school in 2 ˝ weeks. I have one year to go
before I start getting a regular monthly installment from Grandfather's will.
It will be good not to have to ask for money from Father. One would think he
was a poor man the way he doles out my meager allowance of $35.00 a week.(Dave
did a quick calculation in his head and figured that $35.00 was equal to around
$300.00 today) I think that Father will begrudge me being independent from his
pocketbook.
My birthday party was
quite the success. Caroline came. What a beauty. She is so sweet, too. Several
of my friends were swooning over her. She is mine though. She really likes me,
I think.
There was another
beauty at the party. Cold and haughty she is. Beautiful like
an ice sculpture. Someone said her dad has more money than even God. But they are nouveau riche.
Her name is Edith Upton. She ignored me though the whole afternoon and evening.
She's got her eye on Buddy. The Man is crazy about
her. Well, he is welcome to her. I've got my sweet
Caroline. That all I nee--]
Dave's reading was
interrupted as a strong breeze swept over the books, blowing the opened one off of the desk. Dave grabbed for it as it slid across the
desk, but missed. He leaned down to pick it up. The rest of them slid to the
edge and toppled off on Dave's head. Dave scrambled to gather them up. He
stacked them back on the desk top and stood up,
keeping his hand on top of them. He looked to see if either of the other two
men had seen what had happened. Joe was outside the door, and
"Dave you can
read those later. Come on, let's go explore." Joe said, sticking his head
back into the room.
Dave carefully tied
the cords back around the stack. He picked up the bundle, clutching it to his
chest and followed
"Let's see what
Edith's study looks like, first." Joe suggested.
"Certainly." Dave responded.
Dave stopped inside
the door and looked around. He shivered; the room felt chilly compared to the
rest of the house. Neither
Dave moved cautiously
into the room. He looked at the items on the desk more closely. What caught his
eye was the photograph of a young man in military dress. He looked vaguely
familiar. The man in the photo reminded him of him of someone, Dave couldn't quite figure out who. He walked over and picked it
up to read the inscription. "To Edith, the love of my
life. I will always be with you in spirit, Buddy." Dave wondered if
the Buddy mentioned on the first page of the journal was one
and the same. He wondered if the cold beauty that was
also mentioned in the journal was
"Dave, is that a
photo of Bill? It looks just like him except he's dressed oddly."
"No, the man's
name is Buddy and that," he pointed at the woman in the photo, "is
"So this guy
isn't William, Bill's dad?"
"You saw the
painting of William in his study. This is definitely not him."
"Hmm." Joe kept his thoughts to himself
as he turned to look at more of the room.
There was a painting
of a beautiful young woman on the wall behind the desk. Dave knew from the
brief description on the first page of the journal and the inscription on the
photo that it was of Edith. He couldn't see how the
harridan that had screeched obscenities at him each time he'd seen
"No hidden safe
here." He said, as he hung it back on its nail.
"No Edith's safe
is in her bedroom."
"Well, shall we
head upstairs?" Dave asked.
Dave laid the stack of
journals on the big table in the center of the foyer at the foot of the grand stair case. He tightened the bow and turned to follow the
other two men up the stairs.
At the top of the
staircase
"To the right is
Edith's wing and to the left was William's."
Dave wondered at the
difference in tenses as he mentioned their names. Maybe he felt that Edith's
spirit hadn't quite let go of her worldly possessions.
"Shall we toss a
coin?" Joe asked.
A sudden cold breeze
blew down Dave's neck. He shuddered. "Did you feel that?" he asked.
"Feel what,
Dave?"
"That
cold breeze."
"I think your
imagination is getting to you, Babe.
"Anyway, I would
like to explore Bill's dad's rooms first and Bill's too." Dave said
glancing toward the other wing to make sure Edith really wasn't
watching.
"Let's do
it." Joe said like and eager kid.
Before they got to the
heavy oak double doors leading into the master suite
they heard Joe in the room adjacent to it.
"Dave come in here. It's a memorial to Bill."
Dave stepped into the
room and gasped. It was a young boy's room. A single bed in the corner next to
the window, a chest of drawers and a student desk with a chair were the only
pieces of furniture in the room, except for a big club chair. They were all of
an earlier period, but looked like they were brand new. 'This would have been
Bill's room if he'd been allowed to live with his dad,' Dave thought. The well used club chair looked out of place. Dave could see
that William had spent many hours in this room sitting in this chair. What was
amazing was that the walls were cover in framed photographs of Bill from
babyhood to soon before William's death.
As Dave studied the
ones of Bill's later life he realized that all the
shots were taken covertly. He recognized the backgrounds of many of them. Some were taken in the bookstore, others around the campus and
some even around their home.
And many of them were shots of Bill and
Dave together; some in moments of light intimacy. There was
one blow-up of Bill and himself holding hands and looking into each other's
eyes that sat on the desk. It looked like it had been
posed for. He wondered what the moment had been about, and how the shot could have been taken without them being conscious of it.
The background was blurred so Dave couldn't identify
the location of the shot.
"The man really
loved his son." Joe commented in a quiet reverent voice filled with awe.
"I wonder if
Edith ever ventured into the room." Dave said.
"I seriously
doubt it."
Dave only nodded as he
continued to study the photos.
"Are you ready to
go into the master suite, Dave?"
"Sure." Dave
said, coming out of his revery. As he turned to leave
the framed photos on the wall clattered as though a wave had washed around the
room. Dave's hair stood on end as he glanced around the room. Had he imagined
that? Shaking his head, he hurried out and closed the door.
Joe and
"No
problem." Dave said as he walked toward the big king sized sleigh bed made
of very rare curly teak. The bed alone screamed money. He looked for Joe who
had wandered to the far end of the room. He was running a hand over the black
marble mantle. Dave felt the need to be close to him and walked briskly over to
Joe. Joe picked up on the need and enveloped him in
his arms.
"How does it feel
knowing that all of this is yours, Babe?" Joe asked as he gently rocked
Dave back and forth.
"Unreal. Not
true. I feel like an interloper. This place is haunted, Joe." Dave clung
to Joe's waist. He turned his face up to Joe who lowered his lips to meet his.
For more than a minute they kissed. Joe finally broke
it and pulled Dave over to one of the large high backed chairs. He sat down and
Dave automatically sat on his lap and laid his head on Joe's shoulder.
"Well, all of
this is yours, Dave. Have you thought about what you will do with it? You don't
want to live here do you?"
"Good God! No!
The vibes in this place give me the shitters. Damn! I
mean shivers." Dave jumped up and paced to the fireplace
and turned. He hardly ever cursed and then it was only when he was very upset.
Joe was laughing at
Dave's combining the two words. "I think shitters
fits." He said.
"Joe let's get
out of here. I've had enough of this for today."
"Sure,
Babe. If that's what you want to do. We haven't gone through Edith's
end yet."
"Not today. I've
just got to get out of here." He took Joe's hand and headed for the door.
Joe stopped long
enough to lock the door and then turned to lock the door to Bill's room. Dave didn't wait. Joe with his long legs quickly strode down the
hall to the staircase and caught up with him. Both of them hesitated at the top
looking down the hall in Edith's wing. Neither man
said anything to the other as they turned and hurried down the stairs as
quickly as their feet could move.
Dave was nearly
running when he got to the front door. He suddenly stopped and Joe ran into him
and nearly took both of them to the ground. Only by grabbing Dave and whirling
around did he manage to keep them both on their feet.
"What'd you stop
for?"
"I forgot the
Journals." He broke away from Joe and ran back through the big room to the
table at the base of the stair. The journals were not where he had set them.
Dave turned, looking around the room. He wondered if
"He must of risen up under the edge of the table and knocked himself
out,"
"The vase would
be on the other side of the table if that were the case. No, the vase fell over
and rolled, fast, like it had been pushed. It hit him
on the back of the head."
Sitting back on his
heels,
Before Joe could say
anything else, Dave's eye lids fluttered and he
groaned again. and then they opened. Slowly, he
focused on Joe's face.
"Edith got me a
good one," he uttered.
They both looked at
each other and then back at
"You didn't see
her?" Dave asked.
"See who?"
"
"So you saw her,
too?" Joe asked. "I thought my imagination was working overtime.
Dave looked at Joe.
"What exactly did
you see?"
"I saw an old
woman dressed in black. Her arms were folded under her
bosom. She was standing with her feet wide apart as though guarding the door to
her bedroom."
"
"I had the
unpleasant duty of having to identify her body. So I know for
a fact that she is dead and buried, Dave. And I don't believe in
ghosts."
"Well, there is
no point in arguing about it right now. Let's get out of here," Joe said.
He helped Dave to his
feet and held onto his arm as they moved toward the door.
He muttered something
about strange damned winds as he hurried to lock the door and gave the keys
back to Dave.
~~~~
The Journals were
stacked on the coffee table in the den. Dave stared at them from the doorway,
his arms folded tightly against his chest. He couldn't
get the image of Edith's ghost out of his head. Joe was in the kitchen
preparing dinner, the occasional clatter of pots and pans audible in the
background. He was torn between wanting to be with Joe
and wanting to sit down and find out what secrets the six books held. He heard
his name called softly and turned to see Joe standing in the kitchen door with
a pot in his hand.
"Come keep me
company, Babe, while I cook."
Dave smiled, relieved
that the decision was made. He wrapped his arms around
Joe's waist as he peered around him to see what he was concocting on the stove.
Joe kissed him on the forehead.
"Umm, that smells
good. I didn't realize I am starving."
Joe served up poached
chicken breasts dressed with a light garlicky sauce, spaghetti carbonara, coarsely shredded carrots that had been lightly sauteed in butter with a touch of brown sugar to enhance
their natural sweetness, and a salad of baby field greens with a lemon vinaigrette.
Dave sat down grinning
at his lover and attacked the food with gusto. Joe couldn't
have been more satisfied with his culinary efforts.
~
After cleaning up the kitchen they settled on the sleek leather sofa with steaming
cups of freshly brewed coffee. They both stared at the stack of journals.
"I feel kind of voyeurish just thinking of reading those books." Joe
muttered.
Nonsense you saw in
the letter that William gave Bill permission to publish them if he saw
fit."
"I know, but this
is a little different from reading a printed book."
Dave reached over and
picked up the top journal that he had started reading earlier.
"You want to read
together?" He asked.
"No, I want to
peruse the last volume I think." Joe said slipping the bottom book out
from under the other four. He snuggled into the corner of sofa making himself a cozy nest. Having shucked his shoes, he plopped
his feet on the coffee table. Dave swivelled around
and laid his head on Joe's thigh as he stretched out on the length of the sofa.
Both became absorbed in what they were reading.
Sometime later, Dave
interrupted Joe's reading.
"Listen to this.
I think that something
has gone awry with dad's investments. He is very preoccupied these days. He
hardly pays any attention to me. And then last night
he was asking many questions about my social life. One question stuck me as
very odd. He asked me how I felt towards Edith Upton. I told him I thought she
was beautiful but cold as an ice burg, and that I have hardly been around her
even though she is dating my best friend.
His questions stopped
with that answer. He became very preoccupied again.
Dave scanned into the
next page.
Last night I ran into
Buddy and Edith Upton at Wharton's Café. I was with Elizabeth Complin. He asked us to join them at their table. Edith was visibly disturbed by this. Throughout the hour or so
that we were there she kept studying me. Very strange.
I felt like a bug under a microscope. Afterwards
Dave flipped the page.
Scanned down the page through numerous entries.
School is out for the
summer. Our bunch is going to take the train up to
If the
Edith has turned her
eyes on me. Something is up. She and Buddy are still very thick. I would think
he would be a fine feather in her cap. So why is she trying to get my
attention?
Finally looks like something may happen.
President Roosevelt has gone over to have a conference with Mr. Churchill.
Edith continues to
make overtures. I don't understand her gig. She is
always with Buddy. It's easy to see the fellow is
smitten with her. She is all he talks about.
I'm 18 on the 19th.
Damn the Separatists. Can't they see that if Hitler wins we will be his next
victim? So we have a big ocean to protect us. He'll find a way to do it if we don't stop him now.
Buddy proposed to Edith. She is
considering it. I know it is her parents looking for someone of higher social
standing. Buddy is so smitten. I wish he could
convince her to run away and get married.
"This is like
getting a glimpse of history first hand. Go to November of Forty-one," Joe
suggested. He laid down the volume that he had been perusing.
Dave skipped several
pages. "Ah, here it is," he said, and started reading aloud again.
Dad's in big financial trouble. His
European investments are nil at this point. He is seeking someone one to pull
him out.
The curtain has been raised. Now I understand it all. Mr. Upton wants
Social status. Edith is being pushed to get me.
Dad is urging me to
pay attention to her. Mr. Upton has big money.
Well, the parents have
struck a deal. I am the bargaining piece. If I marry Edith
my father is saved. At least I'm not emotionally
involved. Poor Buddy where does this leave him? I don't
like this one bit. He is my best friend. We grew up together.
I must give Edith
credit. She doesn't like this one bit more than I do.
She told me that her father has threatened to disinherit her and send her back
to
I know that if I don't marry her, Dad's financial collapse would kill him. And where would that leave my dear sweet mother? It would
probably end up killing her, too. I can't let that
happen.
I will marry Edith.
My
God! We've been attacked. The Japanese hit
Yes! War has been declared. Now we can get Hitler out of
Buddy did it. He's
gone. He is now a soldier. Damn, we were going to enlist together. I guess this
damned marriage is why. Who could blame the poor boy? It makes me feel like a
genuine heel. But I've got to save my dad.
The date is set.
12/20. I shall enlist on the 21st.
Am
so glad that I am the Groom. All this flurry for a fancy
wedding. It's all a sham. Just a big
show to impress with his wealth. He told me to call him Dan. I will not.
The ass shall stay Mr. Upton. I cringe when he tries to be friendly. It is so
hokey.
Neither Dad nor Mom
has smiled for days. Dad won't raise his eyes to meet
mine. God, I feel like the lamb to the slaughter.
Well, I am now a
married man. At least in name. Edith marched into the
suite and locked the bedroom door behind her. I shall spend the night on that
miserable looking sofa. So much for married life.
Dec.22,1941
My life is a snafu. I stood in line for an hour and half this morning to
enlist in the army. When I finally got to the table I
was told that I was already signed up and I am to report to
I went straight to my
father to have it out with him for doing this to me. It turns out Dad didn't have anything to do with it.
I went back to the
recruiting station to see if I couldn't just be a
common soldier. No luck. The die is
cast.
This has been the most
horrible day of my life. Having to act like a loving husband
to that cold witch. What on earth did Buddy
ever see in her? In front of her father she is clingy
and cloying and soon as we leave his presence she is again cold and distant.
Both families got
together for Xmas dinner at the
Hopefully, as soon as Edith and I are gone
from here Dad won't have to associate with him so much.
I leave for
Dave turned forward
several pages until he came to a letter attached to a page. Joe was leaning
against him reading right along with him.
Jan.16, 1942
I received a letter
from Buddy today. I had thought I would probably never hear from him again. I
wish that things had gone the way we had planned. He really is my closest
friend. I think I miss him more than I do Mom and Dad.]
Joe unfolded the
letter and held it where Dave could read it, too.
Dear Will,
Happy
New Year.
I suppose you thought
I was a coward running away without even saying good-bye. Maybe I am.
The night before I
left Mr. Upton called me and told me to come over to see him. I thought that he
was going to ask me about my intentions toward Edith. WRONG!
He was very straight forward in telling me what was going to happen (you
marrying Edith). And then he told me he had enough
dirt on my dad to ruin him for life. I didn't believe
him. He pulled out a folder and passed it across his desk to me, not saying a
word.
Will, I could never
reveal what the photos in that folder revealed. I love my dad, but I couldn't spend another night under his roof after seeing
those pictures. Thank God my mother is dead.
I closed the folder
and handed it back to
Of course
I did exactly what he told me to do. I went home and packed a
duffel and was first in line at the recruiting station the next morning.
I left a note for Dad telling him I was joining up and where he could find my
car. I feel bad about not saying more but I was in shock. I didn't
think I could stand seeing him then. I wish I had now. No matter what, he is my
Dad and he was always there for me. I wrote to him, apologizing for leaving as
I did. I made it sound like I was broken up about Edith. I couldn't
reveal that I knew about him. I just couldn't.
I've had several letters from Edith. I
don't know what I should feel about her at this point.
I look at this from where I am now and I can see that you had little or no
choice in saving your dad from financial ruin. But I
am still hurt that Edith didn't even try to resist her father. She obviously
loves the money, power and prestige more than me.
I know that she is now
your wife, Will, but I also know you have no love for her. And
knowing the both of you, I know there will never be a consummation of your
marriage. You are too much the kind, considerate gentleman
and she is cold, and conniving.
How can I say that
about her and still be in love with her? Well, I saw a side of her once in a while that is a lovable little girl. I think that
given the chance that side of her could come to the fore. But,
I guess that as long as her father is alive it will never happen.
My first week here I
was pulled for officer training. I will be given three days leave
before being shipped overseas. I wish that we were going together like we had once planned. We've
been best friends since we were in nursery school. Now life has torn us apart.
There is this dim dread in the back of my subconscious. I don't
really believe I'll be coming back from over there. And
if I do survive I will certainly not go back home. So one way
or another I doubt that we will ever reconnect. But
always remember I am you best Buddy.]
Joe finished reading
the letter before Dave and raised his eyes to his face. Dave had tears running
down his cheeks. He folded the letter, wiped his face and continued scanning
through the entries. He turned the page and found another letter attached to
the page.
I found this letter
opened and laying on my study desk this morning. I do not understand why Edith
would open my private mail and hold on to it for nearly a month before giving
it to me. Maybe she does have a little human kindness in her. She hasn't spoken to me but twice since I arrived in
Dave unfolded the
letter and read it aloud to Joe.
Dear Will,
I finagled a three-day
leave. And went home to see my dad. I feel so much
better for having done it.
I told him what had
transpired with
I was so upset and
angry seeing my dad like that, that I went to see
I took them home and
gave them all to my dad. He acted like I had given him
his life back to him. Well, maybe I did. All I know is that no one deserves to
be ruined because of their consensual bedroom
activities.
The night before I
left for the ship Dad invited his "friend" to dinner to meet me. I had seen him around all my life and never knew. I will not
reveal to you who he is, but you, too, have known him all your life. He is a
fine upstanding pillar of the community.
Congratulations on
your appointment, even if
I will write you again
from the trenches.
Your best
Buddy
"Wow! I wonder
what happened to them all." Joe said as he watched Dave refold the letter.
Dave closed the journal and stretched his arms over his head and arched his
back.
"Let's find out
tomorrow, I am bushed.
Joe got up as Dave
leaned forward and placed the book on the coffee table. He held out his hands
to Dave and pulled him up and into his arms. His eyes were burnished gold as he
stared into his lover's.
"You know how
lucky we are to have been born into this time period? I'd hate to have to hide
my love for you." Joe asked as his lips sought Dave's.
"Mmmm." Was all that Dave managed to get out as his passion for
Joe took over and he became totally involved in the
kiss.
End of chapter 20